Wednesday, June 16, 2010

This is gonna be another one about growth. We're growing all the time but different parts of us grow at different times and different rates. My body, as it is, has done most of it's growing. But my mind, my spiritual and emotional selves, are going through a period of significant growth right now. For me, the tender beginnings of this growth were when I was 14. Not much happened, nothing significant, until I was 19 and realized I was in full control of this side of myself. I could choose what paths to follow, hell, I could carve my own path!

I'm reading The Celistine Prophecy currently. It's about how the human population is entering a new era of awareness and understanding of life. The first step is a restlessness, a knowledge that there's something more. but not knowing what it is.

This theory rings true for me. I always thought my restlessness was unique to me, but it turns out I'm just brave enough to change what I dislike about my life. I'm young, I'm making mistakes. The restlessness may never end. But I'm learning how to live with it.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

As children we can't wait to grow up. But it's when we're adults that we realize we've lost so much.

Like being silly. When was the last time you were silly? Totally barmy. Just went with the flow. It's been a long time for me. I propose silliness workshops for adults. It would be a fantastic way to release all the crap we carry around with us.

Life is for living, I'm fast realizing that but I find it hard to keep that realization with me all the time. I'm on a journey, it's gonna be a long one I hope because I have so much I want to do and learn. I'm getting good at letting go and meditation. Recently I left a meeting because my head was bursting. Normally I would have given as much as I got but I couldn't hack it. The real growth as human beings happens all the time. I'm in a big period of 'real change'. My early 20's are going to be pretty amazing if I keep learning and growing at the rates I currently am.

Current reading: How to be a Happy Lesbian.

Current Listening: Silly music from my acorn.

Current thoughts: Spiritual