Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Dave, Nate, Chris and Taylor,

The album Dave calls your best is the one that has been my best. My best out of all the albums in my 10,000 song strong music collection.

In the early days I used it to help me get over my very first boyfriend and after that I turned to it every-time I was angry (Disc 1) or lonely (Disc 2), still do to this day. Dave's voice and the sheer genius that is the music coming from your incredible foursome soothes my soul and lets me feel free of whatever has been happening in my life.

You guys got me through my first break up, my coming out, my biggest heartbreaks and my loneliest nights. Your songs are laced with memories, good and bad, the things that have made me stronger.

Thank you for doing what you do.

X x

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

My uncanny ability to move crowds or make other people move crowds. Tis a gift I tells ya!

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

People say I'm a good listener, I'm warm and caring and that I'll help anybody who needs help.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

There's nobody in my life that I wish I didn't know. There are people I dislike and who dislike me for whatever our reasons may be but I don't spend any time wishing I didn't know them. Pretty pointless way to waste my time.

Letting go is a whole other kettle of fish for me. Despite all logic and reasoning, all the chats I have about this with others and going over those chats again myself, I have big issues about letting go of certain people. What makes it more difficult is I don't want these people out of my life. It's not the people I need to let go of, it's the hopes and dreams, the ideas for the future I had that will never happen.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I'm not big on blaming other people for how my life is or what has happened to make it good or bad. Probably because I've never had somebody who has collided with me head on and made every second of every day unbearable.

Thats not saying I haven't been treated badly by some people, it's been a more subtle destruction.

I have a horrible habit of running away when I get scared. I'll go to the person who offers me freedom from whatever it is that scares me, who distracts me so I don't have to face it right now. It's because of this tendency that people have been able to hurt me. I become wrapped up in the distraction, not really seeing what is going on around me or what the person is doing to me.

I've lost so much because of this, love, respect, trust, months upon months of my life. I've hurt friends and family and myself. It has made me stronger but I still can't forgive what I've done to the people I love the most.

I suppose you could say, I've made my own life hell.