Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

C'est moi.

My day was rather epic as far as Sundays go. Had a T. Swift party, confused the Spin presenters and got half an assignment done. Oh and there was pizza and a puppy in there too.

You know who you are... :)

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of our favorite place to eat.
Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – Your favorite movie.
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Really not enjoying this 30 days...

So I'm going to start a new one, I might finish the old one at some point but I'm hating it right now so it won't be for a while.

The 30 Day Song Challenge

Day 01 – Your favorite song
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 – A song that describes you
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

Day 8-A place you've traveled to

Love Italy :) This was the local town from my trip to the southern east coast in 2006.

Day 7-Favorite movies

Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy

I love seeing lesbian and gay couples holding hands, makes me smile every time.

Day 5-Your siblings

One official blood related sibling, younger, female, loud. However I have multiple siblings that have been adopted in along the way. I think it's just a natural thing to have family who aren't actually related to you. Family is love not just blood.

Day 4-Your parents

Are 25 years married this year. That's a rarity these days.

Day 3-Your first love

Ah now this is a nice story:

I was 15 and in transition year, and my all girls school was doing a play with the local all boys school. Through some crazy turn of events I was playing the female lead (having only gone in to an audition to read my friends lines for her). Being a dramatic teenager I was keen to scope out my male lead, instead of focusing on the staging of this production like a good theater junkie should.

So I scoped. And he seemed to be doing the same. He was a quiet sweet normal guitar playing boy who was checking me out, probably the first time I had ever had that kind of attention. So I went with it, we flirted around actually saying much or doing much aside from walking round the school grounds together and sitting in the jam room, him playing guitar for me.

And eventually we kissed. And got a round of applause for it (No it wasn't part of the play, we'd just been so dang obvious about liking each other that people were relieved).

Being a dramatic teenager what follows isn't awfully romantic or nice. We broke up, got back together and broke up again. There was a year of not speaking, avoidance and general teenage dramatics. But now we're mates again.

Fin.

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

The meaning behind my url is my two names, Wendy and Gill. One is my birth name and the other was given to me when I joined a youth group. They don't like having two people with the same name :P

The meaning behind my blog name is that I am generally confused, I blog about the craziest of things which if you read my blog in one sitting seems very random, and I know I'm not a great writer, I jump from topic to topic which makes it more mumblings than writing.

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts

Am I introducing myself? Or this blog series? Either way it's all about me so hi! :P Stay tuned you might learn something.

Moi:

15 Interesting Facts:

1. I go by two names.

2. I've done first year in college 4 times.

3. I'm a step-mom and a grandmother.

4. I've spoken in from of 2,500 people.

5. I have 5 tattoos and plan a whole lot more.

6. I'm really bad with piercings, I get pissed off waiting for them to heal.

7. I have the craziest taste in music, everything from Disney to obscure artists.

8. I have no idea what I'm doing or where I'm going.

9. I look steady and calm to a lot of people.

10. I'm following my gizzard.

11. I spend my time trying to get over people, or actually getting over them only to fall for someone else. There's a space in my heart that seems to only ever fill with other people.

12. I go through phases of gaming, PC, DS and PC.

13. I love books and reading.

14. Despite number 14 my reading habits have changed drastically and I'm reading very little these days.

15. I'm bad at starting what I finish. It took me 2 hours to write this :P

My next 30 Days

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

Day 3-Your first love

Day 4-Your parents

Day 5-Your siblings

Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 7-Favorite movies

Day 8-A place you've traveled to

Day 9-A picture of your friends

Day 10-Something you're afraid of

Day 11-Favorite tv shows

Day 12-What you believe

Day 13-Goals

Day 14-A picture you love

Day 15-Bible verse

Day 16-Dream house

Day 17-Something you're looking forward to

Day 18-Something you regret

Day 19-Something you miss

Day 20-Nicknames

Day 21-Picture of yourself

Day 22-Favorite city

Day 23-Favorite vacation

Day 24-Something you've learned

Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs

Day 26-Picture of your family

Day 27-Pets

Day 28-Something that stresses you out

Day 29-3 Wishes

Day 30-a picture

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Hey you :)

You don't like hearing the good stuff bout you. Hell I'm cringing even typing this stuff. But there are a lot of good things about you.

For a start you're damn cuddly, even minus severe amounts of boobage. You have a half decent taste in music and a very pretty iPod. You listen well most of the time and apparently give good advice. Big forms don't scare you and you rocked that first aid class.

Plus you kick ass in Just Dance. There's some pretty cool stuff about you, don't beat yourself up so often.

Love you.

X x

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I really want to be able to finish things I start. My mind is constantly going, I get swept up in new projects, new books, new people. I really want to just slow down, read my mini library, really get to know people, and enjoy whats going for me right now.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Being of the homosexual persuasion this is unlikely to happy but if it did I'd keep the baby, no second thoughts about it. Having been in the situation where I was having to consider alternatives to keeping a baby I can honestly say I'd never have an abortion and I'm unlikely to be able to go through with an adoption unless I really couldn't give my child a good life.

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

The day this hit the news:

I went: :( and then went: ^_^ BABY!

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

This is more the person I owe still being alive to. I met the guy who saved my life three years ago, and although we have't spoken in most of those three years due to drifting, he made such an impact on me that I'm naming my first son after him. He'll probably never read this, or even know how truly grateful I am. But I owe him everything.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Found that extra star-sign. Bastards have the whole world shaken :P

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

To be honest, there's nothing I wish I hadn't done because it's made me who I am today.

However I do regret hurting people. If I could take back the hurt I would.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Ehm go to the hospital? He's still my best friend, and at a time like this who gives a crap about fights. I'd rather go and be told by him to piss off than not go and regret it.

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Do what you want on your own time as long as you're not hurting anybody. That anybody includes people who will be hurt by you abusing your body.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Oooh can I answer both?? :P I will nanyways.

I believe religion or belief of some sort is important. Whether you believe in a god or your toaster is up to you. I've been really interested in learning about various religions for years now, I find the customs and traditions fascinating. As for my own religion I'm in no big rush. I'm young, and I need to live a bit more and I'll find whats right for me.

Plus hooray for these three:

As for politics I give it a big:

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

This is quickly becoming my latest indulgence:

A Bicycle Built For Two

I want gay marriage made legal everywhere. And i'd quite like it now. Yes right now. Spain did it. The sky didn't fall, heterosexual marriages weren't suddenly rendered null and void. In fact many people didn't even notice or care.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Chances are there've been more than my fair share of books that have done this in my lifetime. I love reading. It's a major source of learning for me. Therefore books change my views. Or rather they educate me and my views change accordingly. But the book that has educated me the most in recent times has been:

As it has been with most books I've read recently I haven't totally finished it yet but it has been one of the most enlightening books I can remember reading.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Mass media making me feel like a whale. Especially at this time of year.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

I managed two weeks without my old one before caving and getting the new model.

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Dear Lindsay,

When I was 16 you became my hero. You were in Freaky Friday, had long red hair and you weren't a stick. You were funny, cute and you didn't seem afraid of who you were. Then Mean Girls came along and you were more my hero than ever. You showed a young girl who was easily manipulated that it happened to everyone, even you.

You were dating Samantha Ronson around the time I came out to my family. It was great to see someone I'd grown up with dating another woman. I felt less alone.

Then things seemed to keep going badly for you. Drugs and alcohol have destroyed your reputation and your career. You dealt badly with your break up and you've been in rehab and jail more times than I've bothered to count.

Where did you go? Is your life that hard that you turned to drugs to make it better? I thought you were stronger than that. Now I see you were just a half decent actress who doesn't give a crap about what her highly publicized mistakes are doing to her fans. I do hope you recover from this, but you'll never be a hero in my eyes again.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Dave, Nate, Chris and Taylor,

The album Dave calls your best is the one that has been my best. My best out of all the albums in my 10,000 song strong music collection.

In the early days I used it to help me get over my very first boyfriend and after that I turned to it every-time I was angry (Disc 1) or lonely (Disc 2), still do to this day. Dave's voice and the sheer genius that is the music coming from your incredible foursome soothes my soul and lets me feel free of whatever has been happening in my life.

You guys got me through my first break up, my coming out, my biggest heartbreaks and my loneliest nights. Your songs are laced with memories, good and bad, the things that have made me stronger.

Thank you for doing what you do.

X x

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

My uncanny ability to move crowds or make other people move crowds. Tis a gift I tells ya!

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

People say I'm a good listener, I'm warm and caring and that I'll help anybody who needs help.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

There's nobody in my life that I wish I didn't know. There are people I dislike and who dislike me for whatever our reasons may be but I don't spend any time wishing I didn't know them. Pretty pointless way to waste my time.

Letting go is a whole other kettle of fish for me. Despite all logic and reasoning, all the chats I have about this with others and going over those chats again myself, I have big issues about letting go of certain people. What makes it more difficult is I don't want these people out of my life. It's not the people I need to let go of, it's the hopes and dreams, the ideas for the future I had that will never happen.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I'm not big on blaming other people for how my life is or what has happened to make it good or bad. Probably because I've never had somebody who has collided with me head on and made every second of every day unbearable.

Thats not saying I haven't been treated badly by some people, it's been a more subtle destruction.

I have a horrible habit of running away when I get scared. I'll go to the person who offers me freedom from whatever it is that scares me, who distracts me so I don't have to face it right now. It's because of this tendency that people have been able to hurt me. I become wrapped up in the distraction, not really seeing what is going on around me or what the person is doing to me.

I've lost so much because of this, love, respect, trust, months upon months of my life. I've hurt friends and family and myself. It has made me stronger but I still can't forgive what I've done to the people I love the most.

I suppose you could say, I've made my own life hell.